Mood: Daily Needs
Listening to: the fridge rumble
Reading: math equations
Watching: God take good care of me
Playing: live again! (i've missed it!)
Eating: home made pizza
Drinking: not enough water
I cried for no reason today
and then smiled at the gain.
The pull I felt was the cost;
much more than a sense of loss;
I am not winning with God;
rather, I am losing to Him.
Looking at everything slain
and the mountains at bay,
it becomes less clear
that darkness stains my feet.
As I run; as I stay,
I marvel at this play.
I cannot hide where I long to;
something knows that's not what to do.
His attentiveness I seek
but when He looks at me I an afraid.
There it seems so suddenly,
one little lonely stream
running dry but not entirely,
sends someone out to rescue me.
The moon sings sad songs
of loneliness and rights and wrongs.
Bright ice cheers for my soul
and even the dirt sparkles beneath my feet.
As I ponder the point of passion,
I see promises written in the sky;
Colors wrapped around the sun,
and I know the best has now begun.
He calls to me and I glance back,
frightened by His swinging sword.
As He says my name;
I look ahead and see the same...
The valley turned coal with blood;
no hint of light except for Him.
He fiercely kills monsters with his blade
and mountains block my path every which way...
I am losing to Him and wonder why
it is that He seems the bad guy.
It's time to leave those ended things.
The one with those piercing eyes...
He's the only one who fought the sky
to brush away the tears I've cried.
Confusion drives with chaos
and I almost forget about betrayal.
I don't know where to run
so I stop and look at that One...
The warrior who comes so quickly;
the only one shroud in light.
I misunderstood the battle scene
because I was in the midst of it....
In it there is nothing green
and the bidding is to dismiss
It was He who set me free,
It is Him who heals me...
I want to run but then I faint
and in my dream it's made so plain;
the war is outside and I'm spared for a spell,
but the real war is inside of me as well.