Things On My Mind

you seem so far away,
reaching out your big hands
beckoning me to the unknown.

how can i trust you
when i ask for pain?
but i don't understand why it comes.

i want to open up my eyes
and look out into the world -
i want to see life.
i want to see colors for the first time.

so let me see your face.
open my ears and let me hear your voice -
the beautiful songs i can only imagine.
make it real.

i want my innocence again,
why did i give it away?
is it gone forever?

you say you're living
when you beat yourself against a stone.
i see the truth.

you are bleeding and shaking,
you are so hurt you cannot cry,
but you must.

look past yourself and listen
hear the peace in the wind.
the music is all around you,
it moves in everything.

other people's lives suck
just like yours does sometimes...
pointing it out to others is not helping
so point at yourself.

camouflage your worries with your lies.
you can't hide forever.
strike outrageously any way you can -
soon you'll get tired.

hide all you want
i can see you
you're still me after all.

play this foolish game forever
soon you will be forced to see
that you lost when you were denied.

get rid of your anger.
pretend you don't care
and watch it eat your insides
until you are dust blown on the street.

keeping all your secrets
and denying my face
only calls whispering ghosts in the night
to steal your pleasant dreams.

learn how to love before it is too late
and you will see the dawn of a new life,
you will hear trumpets of okay
and you will flip the dead leaf.